¨Sometimes I wonder what I am doing here, I admit it¨ by Elizabeth Gilbert. EAT. PRAY. LOVE

Is that quote known to you?  NO?!  Well, you are a lucky person. YES?! Well, we are two now. Or three, or one hundred, or one million?!
If you have never asked yourself what you are doing (with your life?) at some point of your life, I take my hat off to you. And all I can say is WOW! Even while writing this post I wonder what I am doing. Because I do not do this kind of things, and yes, this is my homework, but still.  Isn´t life crazy? It is! It is so crazy that makes you do things you never thought you would be able to do, or maybe do things you never wanted to do.  Or do things you do not want to do but still you are doing it (not my case with this post, I kind of enjoy this!)

Our lovely friend Liz is still in Italy, eating, meeting people and learning about herself. Yes, loneliness can be a harsh teacher, but still teaches you a lot of things you need to know. She realized that she has come to Rome to look for pleasure, but not sexual pleasure. She actually decided that she does not want sex for a while, or maybe while she is in Italy. Did she feel lonely? Yes, she did. Did she miss being kiss? Yes, she did. Did she miss feeling love? Yes, she did. But this is what she thought to herself when she feels lonely:  So be lonely, Liz. Learn your way around loneliness. Make a map of it. Sit with it, for once in your life. Welcome to the human experience. But never again use another person´s body or emotions as a scratching post for your own unfulfilled yearnings. 
And to be honest, I admire her for this. Sometimes (or always), It can be really hard for the human being to be alone. We were made to socialized, to feel appreciated, to feel loved and to love people. But we need to love ourselves before loving other people. Because when you love someone else more than you love yourself, is when your world becomes the other person world, and then, that person becomes your world. Then that person leaves, and you do not have a world anymore. You are already lost.

Elizabeth was already divorced, but she felt wrong about everything. She always wanted a love story, and when she met David, she knew that she wanted her love story to be with him. But there were divorced already. No love story for both of them. And that hurts her. So she decided to write an email to David, she needed to say goodbye. Write the happy ending for her love story. It was really painful. The email reported that she was OK, and that she hopes he is OK too. Then she wrote that she thinks they need to put an end to their story, and finishing with: ¨If you want to look for for another partner in your life, of course you have nothing but my blessing¨. Then she signed it with love. It was hard. She realized that what she wanted to read as his reply was something like: Come back! Don´t go! I will change!  Sometimes, life is not that pleasant. She received his reply. He agreed with her, it was time for a closure.  He also informed that he hope she knows how much he loves her, ¨But we are not what the other one needs¨. With this, it was done. They were not a couple anymore, there were not changes they would be a couple, it was done. Oh crap, that hurts!

She was working on her recovery. She received the visit of her sister. She also traveled to Bologna, Florence, Venice, Sicily, Sardinia, Naples and Calabria.

There were only some weeks left in Italy before going to India. So she decided to keep eating, keep practicing her very improved Italian and most important, keep learning about herself.